Beginning is key. The first step of any journey is often the most difficult. Fear, self-doubt, challenges, and lack of support can keep us stuck, but once we begin, things shift.
I first applied to nursing school thirteen years ago. At the time, I would have had fewer prerequisites to take, a strong support system, and could have had my doctorate by now. I had survived ovarian cancer and felt an urgency to move forward, but my kids were still babies. So, I chose to be with them. I wanted to be with them. I didn’t want to miss a step, or be of divided mind. I was a single mom. I worked while they slept and spent our days experiencing the world together. It was a difficult, yet delicious time.
We have had many adventures since that time. We have all grown. I have no regrets. My children gave me the opportunity to fully experience my childhood as well as theirs. Now, as teenagers, their mommy has gone back to school. My roles are many and varied, but the role of mommy remains in the forefront.
It was a difficult choice to finally dive back into school, take all my prerequisites, and apply to nursing school. Creating a personal path when life is filled with uncertainties can deter us from committing to taking the first step on a new journey. It takes courage and inspired action to begin. Each beginning opens the door to a path of self-discovery and transformation. Beginning can bring new confidence, revive inner passions and foster personal development and spiritual growth. I am looking forward to savoring each step through my training. I know it will challenge me physically, emotionally and spiritually, but I don’t feel daunted as I step into uncharted waters. I have gathered my courage, my patience and my faith in myself, my family, my classmates and my instructors and I take the first step.
I welcome the challenge and each day I choose the adventure over comfort and my path continues to be revealed. Life is filled with uncertainties, obstacles, and challenges. The “right time” may not exist. Creating a path to the door where the first step lies is half the battle. When you get to the precipice and look over the edge, what you see may frighten you. There’s never a shortage of “what ifs.” The leap of faith is often not a leap at all, but a step, in faith, towards a new beginning.